Today’s post is not going to be very insightful where I tell you about some new revelation that I had about a song lyric, or how I found yet another thing about Buzzfeed that gets me all worked up (This quiz, it’s this one…it can’t be real can it?). Work has been a bit on the crazy side with weekend emails and late night requests, so my brain is not necessarily focused on My Revamped Life let alone is it focusing on me; I mean I am rocking 3-day hair. The ladies out there understand what this is. You put enough dry shampoo in your hair along with a tiny prayer to the follicle god’s and slap on some make up and pretend that the pony-tail kinks in your hair are on purpose and not symbol of last night’s workout class. Men of the world no worries, just because we don’t always wash our hair everyday doesn’t mean that we aren’t showering!
Anyway, if I cannot keep up my coif this week, and it’s only Wednesday, scratch that, it’s Thursday ahh I’m late! I am not sure that I can be held responsible for much more. However, I am taking a quick breath and pausing my week to focus my, day late, WTF Wednesday on me. Over a year ago I was diagnosed pre-diabetic thanks to some awesome family genes, one too many beers in my 20s and a strong mental outlook of ‘this could never happen to me.’ However, it did happen to me and instead of getting down on myself I stuck to my doctor’s orders and medicine and dove head first in to combatting this disease. Almost a year to the day of my diagnosis my levels are basically awesome and I’m closer to being out of the woods than ever before.
Last year I also decided to start saying ‘yes’ more, trying out new things (Hello, Pilates!) and getting out of my comfort zone. First stop? WordPress to pick up a sweet domain and start a blog; hint it’s this one you’re reading right now! I originally intended this blog to be separate from my own personal Instagram, Facebook and basically my life. It was as if I was nervous to tell people that I was blogging even though I really enjoyed it. I was afraid that it was uncool and that I would be thought of as someone who put their feelings the internet, but not in a good way. I stuck with the site, sporadically posting for about 5 months and then I hit a wall…writer’s block.
Writer’s block is real, ya’ll. It’s not only when you cannot think of anything to write, you can’t write and writing is the last thing you want to do. I couldn’t even think about clicking on my website to see how it was doing. I was disconnected from my words, my writing and ultimately me. Towards the end of 2016, after a lot of great travels and tons of amazing deep-talks with my friends, I really started to feel more comfortable with my personality and who I am. I realized that while I will not impress everyone but I impress the crap out of me because I really dig my who I am. I feel strongly that my Q Score is VERY high and so if someone doesn’t like me, I mean that sucks, but ultimately it’s their loss.
And with that acceptance is when that little voice telling me to get back to writing, got a bit louder. By the new year that voice was practically screaming, and the poor thing was getting a bit hoarse. I knew I needed to act quickly. I came back to My Revamped Life, reworked my ‘voice’ and connected my posts to me and my personal Instagram and to that I say WTF? As in WTF was I thinking? Why did I wait so long to do this? Why did I think that strangers, my friends, my followers and more were going to judge me, or think that I’m not very funny or clever or a good writer?
What. The. Eff. Erika?!
I’m pausing this briefly to say thank you to everyone who has commented on my Instagram posts, who have subscribed to my blog, left a comment or a like on my page. I am having the best time ever writing, thinking up new content and interacting with you in the comment section and with every Instagram red heart I receive, I get even more confident. Every bit of support I have received from over the past few weeks remind me that I can do this, I am funny and that you guys like what you read.
I actually cannot thank you enough for your kindness and support. I promise I will not forget you when this blog one day turns into a Podcast and I’m interviewing Bravo-lebrities from The Real Housewives, Vanderpump Rules and more. Ok, real talk? That’s the dream. Put it on your vision boards–let’s make this happen!
I can’t believe I waited this long to share my weird thoughts and experiences with you guys. WTF? Anyway, I promise to continue to write, make you laugh, to never make you think too hard and provide you a few minutes away from the real world. And I promise to stop second guessing my self, because our gut instincts are real and they’re often spot on.
It’s my goal to make My Revamped Life a site you can go to when you need to feel like the weirdness you feel and experience is not just your own, because I’m pretty weird, too. If it feels like you’re talking to your best friend when you’re here, it’s because you are and I’m doing this thing right. Thank you for your support and friendship; let’s sit together at lunch tomorrow, k?